She has a voice that shatters memory.  Every time I hear it, I forget another birthday.  Another past crush dies.  Relatives cease to be names or faces.  I cannot bring them back.  I can only focus on hips, knees and shoulders.  A tuft of hair above The Zone that I deliberately nibble on so I get a thread caught in my teeth.  It makes me feel like a teenager again.

I look for her car as I walk the streets; any time I see that model in that colour I push my chest out and lift my chin.  It might be her, and I don’t want to be slouching.  I have nightmares about tripping over my laces and falling at her feet, breaking my nose and bleeding all over her sandals.

She calls me Martin and she calls me a cunt.  I’m neither.  But I give up dignity and identity to cuddle her jacket when she gets too warm.  I rehearse conversations in my spare time, and then try to spring my ‘spontaneous’ one liners on her anecdotes.  They always fail.  I always stumble.

Perhaps I’m too weak to be adored.  Her on-off boyfriend, Taylor, is now off.  He was too weak to see a rival in the short grass when he focused all his attention in the trees.  That’s why he looked the other way when I lost control of my car, breaking his pelvis.

I see her, sitting in the park.  Chest out, chin up.  Hold that thought…



22 comments on “Drench

  1. S_MW says:

    This is excellent, as per…

  2. Murder Tramp Birthday says:

    Wow! Very interesting. I’m intrigued by your language.

    • jimmicampkin says:

      Thank you! I’m glad you enjoyed it. What intrigues you about my language?

      • MurderTrampBirthday says:

        I’m not sure how to put it. I think it’s unique in how you line up the sentences in comparison to each other, for example, the opening drew me right in: ” She has a voice that shatters memory. Every time I hear it, I forget another birthday”
        It’s powerful how you combine sentences about the mundane and the extraordinary, the introspective and the outward-looking.

      • jimmicampkin says:

        Thank you for taking the time to respond, that’s wonderful to hear 🙂

  3. Your stories are brilliant. Glad to have found your blog. ☺

  4. S_MW says:

    Reblogged this on SPO_OKY.

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